Sound of pulling Heaven down

Me and my feelings for you make this blog. With a little sprits of anything in between. Things i can't or dont want to say. Whoever is reading this, this means I trust you with everything, or hella alot of stuff. Sooo here I am, as me. No walls up and completely revealed.

FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!!!! YOU CANT EVEN TELL SOMEONE HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT ME?!?!? WTF IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!?! YOU KNOW JUST FUCK YOU. FUCKING DUMP ME ALREADY. IT’LL BOTH GIVE US THE GODDAMN SATISFACTION AND I BET IT’LL MAKE YOUR GOD DAMN CHRISTMAS THAT MUCH HAPPIER TO NOT HAVE ME AROUND HUH YOU FUCKING BASTARD. 

I CAN FILL UP PARAGRAPHS ON WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU! AND I FUCKING DID! AND ALL YOU CAN DO IS SIGH AND SAY YOU DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. FUCK YOU. IT MEANS YOUR FEELINGS HAVE CHANGED HAVENT THEY?!?! WELL FUCK YOU MORE. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.

I TOLD THEM EVERYTHING I LIKED ABOUT YOU. TO YOUR SMILE AND YOUR EYES AND YOUR HAIR AND EVEN YOUR FUCKING STUPID ASS LAUGH. YOUR SUPPOSEDLY AMAZING PERSONALITY. FUCK YOU. WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU.TELL HIM ALREADY.TELL EVERYBODY THAT YOU DONT FUCKIN LIKE ME ANYMORE.THAT IM A FUCKING DISSAPOINTMENT FOR YOU. THAT I WASTED YOUR FUCKING TIME. GO AHEAD. IT’LL DEFINITLY MAKE ME FEEL BETTER YOU FUCKING DOUCH BAG. I FUCKING HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU. 

NOW I UNDERSTAND WHY EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED. IM SORRY I COULDNT BE AS WONDERFUL AND AMAZING AS YOUR FUCKING PREVIOUS GIRLFRIEND AND IM DEFINITLY SORRY FOR YOU FOR EVER LIKEING THE MISERABLE ME. DONT FUCKING PRETEND TO MY FACE THAT EVERYTHING IS OKAY. ITS NOT LIKE I TRIED. I TRIED EVERYTIME, EVEN THOUGH IT ABSOLUTLY KILLED ME. I TRIED TO ACT ALL HAPPY TO YOU WHEN I COULD SEE THAT YOUR SO MUCH MORE DIFFERENT!!! FUUCKK YOUUUUUU!!!!!

FUCK YOU FOR NOT CARING

FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME CARE

FUCK YOU FOR PLAYING ME THIS WAY

FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME LIKE YOU

FUCK YOU FOR NOT TALKING TO ME EVEN THOUGH I ASKED YOU WHAT WAS WRONG

FUCK YOU FOR NOT TRYING

FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU 

i tried. I really did. Do you know how much it killed me to try and have a conversation with you like we used to? do you know how much it FUCKING killed me everytime i tried to talk to you and it was like i was annoying you? how bout trying just to hang out with you. its not like you tried. only times we actually hung out are cuz friends asked us to or if i asked you to hang out too. you never showed me that. fuck you. 

fuck you for making me feel so used.

fuck you for making me feel so worthless.

fuck you for making feel like ill never be good enough.

fuck you for making me believe that you were so wonderful.

fuck you fo making me think you were so perfect.

fuck you for making me feel that once your done with me, ill never find a person as lovely as you. 

But the biggest fuck over

is me.

For not being good enough for both of us.